Author S. Tay Glover describes two instances of having seen Sara Ahmed give her talk about institutional diversity, racism, and the "immense labor of being queer, a feminist killjoy, and a willful subject". The first was during Glover's time completing her MA Degree in a women's studies program where Ahmed delivered the keynote. The second ocurred two years later when she studied at an elite private university to earn her doctorate in African American studies with a concentration in Black feminisms and Black queer studies. Glover writes that although she experienced both lectures in different midwestern institutions, departmental, interdisciplinary contexts, she blinked back tears of sadness and anger while in the majority-white rooms. She identified all too well with Ahmed's poetic overview of the violence, and bureaucracy that Black people, queers of color, and women are set up to experience, to weather, or be weathered by within primarily white cisheteronormative higher education spaces. In the midst of both traumatic confrontations with instructors and peers, Ahmed's messages contributed to Black and women of color feminists' ever-growing genealogy of literature concerning academic institutional violences, and she articulated the root and manifestation of Glover's antagonisms. In this essay, Glover describes her wish to contribute to the literature while discussing the neoliberal corporate university's tactics of maintaining epistemologies of ignorance and structures of white supremacy and racial capitalism that make university spaces unconducive to Black lesbian and queer feminist politics and survival.